HELP!

I am SO confused.

Here I am - in my 4th posting going on to my 5th.
I am left with Surgical and A+E.
All my close friends are going to surgical, so obviously that is where I would want to go to.

Last Friday, I was told that I will be going to Anaesth with 14 others, none of whom I am really close with.
I was supposed to go to A+E, but since they are too full, half of us are going to be put in Anaesth.

Here's the thing.
If I go to Anaesth now and then surgical later, I would be alone, with no close friends. Since working with non-friends are no fun as what I am experiencing right now, I am tempted to try to change my next posting to surgical.

But then, I also would like to try on Anaesth. As I have mentioned before, I have actually considered going into Anaesth after I finish my housemanship, so this would be a good exposure. And I am afraid that if I let this chance pass me by, I won't get to know whether or not I really enjoy being in Anaesth. (Plus, as a good friend told me, I can make new friends)

However, missing A+E is also a loss. A+E is a whole different world. You see patient who are in need of urgent help, you learn how to treat acute patients, where every minute really makes a difference. (Patients are usually stabilized in the A+E before being sent to the wards)
If I go to Anaesth, then I would miss the A+E training.

So, now you see why I confused?
What should I do?
What would you do?

What The Future Holdsr

I have to say - I am rather shocked.
Only 5 posts so far this month.
I didn't even realize how fast time flew by this month.

Maybe there was just too many things going on.
Or maybe it's because of the labor room - a place where time just doesn't seem to matter.

One thing I like about the labor room - they (the ladies) come, they deliver, they leave.
We don't have to see the same patients over and over again for a few days and wait for them to get better slowly.
In fact, most of them who come to us are not even sick, they are just delivering, which is a normal process of life!

I have decided that this is what I like - seeing patients for a short while, as in handling a particular patient for a particular moment and then moving on to the next patient.

I don't want to have to wait for a patient to get better over a long period of time.
I want to see, treat and tell the patient that they are well and they can now leave.

So, what field should I get into?

Medical is basically a chronic field- some even say people come there to die.

Kids are just too complicated.

Surgery - not interested.

Ortho is basically surgery - not interested.

O&G - kind of nice, but don't like the surgical part of it, so, once again - not interested.

A&E - never been there, have no idea what it is like. But then, yes, acute management. Either patients come there and die or they get stable enough to be transferred to other wards. But, is there a future in A&E? Why do people say that those who are in A&E are those who can't get into other departments?

Ophthal - can't even do a fundoscopy properly.

ENT - once again - surgery.

Derma - boring?

Anaest - seems interesting. But seems like it needs lots of knowledge - will I be able to know all? What if I can't get a line for a patient? Whom do I turn to?

Did I miss out any departments? I don't think so.

Hmm...I just don't know what I want.

Am I supposed to decide now? Some say that the faster you decide, then the faster you can start to study to become a specialist and so you won't have to be an MO for long (being an MO is NOT EASY!).

Maybe being a chronic MO (being an MO forever) is not too bad (as long as not in a GH).
Maybe be an MO in a KK or district hospital.

Do I even get a choice or will I just be posted out?
I wonder.

Why is life so hard?
So many decisions, so many uncertainties..

Another Day Passed By

Remember the list of things-to-do-this-week I wrote earlier this week?
It failed miserably.
Many things that I was supposed to do, I did not - especially the studying part (not surprising, right?)

Anyway, today, I visited my new nephew!
He was born yesterday to Togo and Tagar and Gamby's parents.
He's SO CUTE!!
I do have photos of him, but can't upload it 'cos I left my cable back in Ipoh.


I know that I have told a million times that the past 8 months passed by very fast.
The past 1 week passed by even faster!
I am kind of dreading going back to work.

The whole going to a new department is really nothing to look forward to.
Not knowing the way things are done, not knowing the MOs and specialists, feeling dumb - it all comes in the package.
And I have to tag for at least a week which means extra long working hours.

Well, what to do, such is life.
One has to do what one has to do.

Anyway, I have the weekend to look forward to for now.
Am hoping to catch a movie this weekend - hope something good is showing.
Till later!