Sometimes I feel like I am stuck in my current job.
If I had studied accountancy and I don't like being an accountant, I can at the very least change to a different company.
If I studied business, I can apply for so many different jobs out there.
I will never get the chance to open up the classified section and look for jobs.
I mean, I can, if I want to - but then the 6 years of my life spent in Russia would be a waste.
It's not as if I dislike my current job.
It is OK.
It is not great.
It is not horrible.
It is OK.
But then, sometimes, I feel inadequate.
I feel ...... (I can't think of a word to describe my feelings).
Maybe I am just not meant to be a doctor.
There are so many things I don't know.
I can't even do simple procedures like blood taking properly.
I wonder what I studied for 6 years.
Do I really know more than what I knew 6-7 years ago?
But then I can't complain cos this job is what I wanted.
This was my ambition.
I wasn't forced to do it so I can't blame anyone for it.
But then again, as I said before, it's not like I hate the job.
Argh...what am I writing..
My past few entries have been full of useless ramblings.
Maybe 'cos it's past my bed time.
Good night....
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3 comments:
My dear, first all, let me say a hi after soooo long i failed to KIT. Hi Sha!!;) N Happy CNY! Well, i felt exactly the same way, even till now. Am still searching for the "light". Well, advices given by frenz...to wait for the "1-yr-work-period" n u'll get used to it. So, i guess we can just wait n see huh? ;)
hey sharini... i'm facing the same dilemma too.. esp thinking the years to be spent doing on-calls and answering to our seniors... damn...
I don't know what to say as I am not in your shoes right now..I know I can;t say that I feel bad for you coz I have never experienced it but I always believe.. that as long as continue to hang on.. You will get the hang of it... ^_^ ... Hopefully my encouragement works ... hehe
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